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| The fall and rise of heroin Claire... (Read 730 times) |
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 2:51 AM |
I love ya', girl. I am SO thankful that you lived through that and were able to overcome so much.
(((Claire))) |
Kirsten
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.: 2008 Goals :.
• Run 1500 miles
• October 5 - 1st marathon - Milwaukee Lakefront - in my home state of WI
• PRs: 5k ~ 15k ~ 25k
• 1st trail race |
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 2:52 AM |
CLAIRE!
Whoa. What an unbelievable story.
You have come so far!
I am proud to know you. |
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 3:06 AM |
| Whoa, Claire, I had no idea. Thanks for your honesty. And congratulations for your strength. Damn. Makes my little problems look pretty trivial. Damn. |
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 3:24 AM |
We are all so proud of you, Claire.
I vote to be thrilled for the new you, cause you're amazing!
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 4:14 AM |
Claire, you are without a doubt an amazing woman. My heart aches at the suffering you endured, but rejoices at the heights you have risen to.
I'm a cop in Texas, and I have worked narcotics for nearly 5 years; I've seen first hand the depths that addicts, especially women, can sink to. Most of them do not survive the awful realities they face; and nothing I've seen can match the strength that addiction to heroin exerts on it's victims.
You are strong, beautiful and blessed. Never forget (I'm sure you won't), and please do all you can to help those that you can (I'm sure you will). You are an inspiration Claire, you have survived an evil that most of it's victims do not; won a war that many will not. You are a treasure to those around you, to those you can help- do not ever forget that. |
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 4:14 AM |
Claire,
Thank you, you are amazing.
How is the leg?
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 4:33 AM |
| YEp, I am proud to know you (via RA) and thank you for sharing. How is getting Knocked Up going? Wishing you the best! love, jilly |
"The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step."
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 6:33 PM
modified: 3/29/2008 at 6:34 PM |
Claire:
That is AWESOME!
I had someone close to me who was addicted to heroin for years and friends/family HAD NO IDEA!
She even got like a dental hygiene degree or something. And had a kid (went down using to 'addict sustainable levels', I guess.) and the kid is fine now.
One day, she just got sick and tired of being sick and tired and checked herself into rehab. Been clean nearly 9 years.
I am so proud of her!
I judge no one on why/how they become addicts. I drink. LOVE IT. But booze can cause problems for people. It's just legal, so society largely gives it a pass.
People take stuff for many reasons. No one says, "Gee, I hope this hit/needle/drink/puff takes me to rock effing bottom and destroys my life and the lives of those I love."
But that is the risk of drugs, legal or not _ and regardless of however society may choose to look down its nose at whatever the substance is. (Oddly, the wife just put on Billie Holiday.)
I don't even know you, and I'm glad you're OK. I just hope you can get back to running soon. |
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 6:44 PM |
Hey, thanks for the supportive words RA peeps.
I don't know what made me watch the videos yesterday. I didn't even know where they were and I had to search the house until I found them in a dusty box under my husband's side of the bed. I was the only person in the house so I thought 'Why not?'
The images were beyond compelling to me, so much so that last night I reloaded this thread about 20 times, the memory of being her became so vivid last night. I didn't feel that I could even tell my husband that I had watched them. They are like a secret stash of porn under our bed that is too nasty to watch and we no longer even refer to them. I shared the pictures here because...well I guess I just needed to share them somewhere.
I desperately want to thank Bruce Goodison. He made the films of me from aged 26 onwards. Without him I would have no record of that period of my life at all. Does it sound strange that I want to remember? I cry at the thought of how sad it would be if I had no pictures of me from before I met John. I cried for me a lot yesterday. When I made the last documentary with Bruce he told me to write. 'Write a script and bring it back to me. We could make a film and tell the world.'
I'll probably never write that script but I would so love to talk to Bruce and tell him that things are pretty f**king cool nowadays. I owe him a drink or two to boot.
Len, for a while I visited the methadone program where I used to attend and give talks to the pregnant addicts about reforming their lives, I was desperate to help. That eventually became too dangerous for me as the man pictured in those images was released from prison and attended the project again. Last time I saw him he was collapsed on a street corner vomiting blood and he didn't even recognize me. Seriously, the father of my second child looked me in the eye and said 'Who the f**k are you?'
I suppose if I knew me back then, I might not recognize me now either.
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Where's my closet? I need to get back in it. |
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 6:48 PM |
Claire, Congrats for putting the past to good use and helping others. You came a long way.
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 7:56 PM |
| Good on you Claire, you have come so far and are such an inspiration. So sad but yet so great you've come out the other side so well. |
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 8:17 PM |
Claire, looking at your photos and reading some of your accounts of your former life and your experiences sends a chill up my spine and unnerves me to the point of nausea. I cannot even fathom having lived through even a smidge of what you endured in your prior life. I am thankful you made it through. You are such a brilliantly intelligent, strikingly beautiful, enchanting, witty, charismatic and loving person from what I have gathered on here. Your husband, children, grandbaby, and those close to you are very fortunate. May you be blessed all the remaining days of your life.  |
Rick
"The will to win means nothing without the will to prepare." - Juma Ikangaa
"I wanna go fast." Ricky Bobby
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posted: 3/29/2008 at 11:47 PM |
Wow. Just wow.
So glad you're still with us. |
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posted: 3/30/2008 at 12:14 AM |
Wow. That's all I can say. Due to repeated hospitalizations I got severely addicted to Dilautid and Demerol. I was on methadone when I was not in the hospital for pain control. I know you have been through hell. Kicking that shit was such an ordeal and I know your path was more brutal than mine. But, well done! Absolutely well done.
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all you touch and all you see, is all your life will ever be
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