Could be a vitamin deficiency.  (((Dopplebock)))

I don't give a fuck - and neither should you. Just go run.

here's a dirty little secret - running is not always fun. its not all kittens and rainbows. lollipops and happy thoughts, hugs and kisses, cheering and singing. ice cream and cake.

Sometimes it sucks, its a chore, you'd much rather be sitting on your ass, it hurts like scalded hell, your still sore as fuck from your 10 mile tempo, its dark, your tired, its raining, you had to get up a 2:50 am to get in your miles before your flight, you have to drink 17 cups of coffee. You so and so is clearly ripping from the bone but you don't give a shit because you cant give a shit - you have to get your run in.  

you dont have the time to care, no patience, no remorse, no mercy.

You park your car in the poring rain - you hear the tornado siren and think to yourself "all those skinny pussy talented guys will be staying in tonight.... I get to put another 11 miles on them" 

I hear you, I understand and I do not disagree.  Maybe I am just a weak A-Hole.  This time of year I just go through the motions.  A good example would be last night, I wanted 18 miles with 5x5 minutes @ 5 mile pace.  It sucked.  I ran the 8 mile warmup and did the 1st 2 reps.  If I cared about training, I would have gutted out 4 of the 5 and maybe cut myself some slack on the 5th - Live to fight another day.  But I was "Done" at 2.

I knew I was making a mistake having 3 goal races that turned into 4 goal race Sept - Dec.  I do not work that way.  I traing and peak for 1 race, but usually can get away with a second good race on the decline from peak.  Then I start the base training cycle.  I still have Monkey and Desert Solstice, but I am in base training mentality. 

9/1-2 BLS 24 hour track race - I was in the best shape of my life and really fucked up the race.

10/14  Glacial Trail 50.  Rainaggedon - Missed my goal by a lot, but ran a pretty solid race for conditions - Fitness has declined 15-20% from peak.

Now all I want to do is run with no purpose - Just run the rest of the year.

I am weak and useless 

I don't give a fuck - and neither should you. Just go run.

 

here's a dirty little secret - running is not always fun. its not all kittens and rainbows. lollipops and happy thoughts, hugs and kisses, cheering and singing. ice cream and cake.

 

Sometimes it sucks, its a chore, you'd much rather be sitting on your ass, it hurts like scalded hell, your still sore as fuck from your 10 mile tempo, its dark, your tired, its raining, you had to get up a 2:50 am to get in your miles before your flight, you have to drink 17 cups of coffee. You so and so is clearly ripping from the bone but you don't give a shit because you cant give a shit - you have to get your run in.  

 

you dont have the time to care, no patience, no remorse, no mercy.

 

You park your car in the poring rain - you hear the tornado siren and think to yourself "all those skinny pussy talented guys will be staying in tonight.... I get to put another 11 miles on them" 

 

Now all I want to do is run with no purpose - Just run the rest of the year.

 

I am weak and useless 

Why is running with no purpose for 8 weeks useless? If you need a mental break, take one. Good grief.

Why is running with no purpose for 8 weeks useless? If you need a mental break, take one. Good grief.

+1

mid-October shut down mentally - Start getting fat and out of shape so I can be ready for January again. 

I believe I have identified the flaw in your plan.

 I have no reason not to train, but I just do not care.

I am with you there. It gets harder and harder for me every year to care enough to train hard enough to PR at anything -- I am getting older, and every PR makes it that much harder. I have 9 consecutive years of PRs at some distance since I started running, but that can't go on forever. And if I can't realistically train to PR -- what is the point?