This weekend some friends of Donna were to help with some of Donna's things. Yesterday the first one called after 6:00pm to reschedule in a couple of weeks. Today the other did not even do that. Saturday I did go through a lot of things, but there is still a mountain to things. Sunday I finally spent sending out Thank You cards and personal notes with each one. I did find a very nice 8X10 of Donna, from 30+ years ago, in a nice wooden frame. I have it up in the living room now. Saturday I did go running with some friends. Sunday I got some things at the Grocery Store. Other than that I spent the weekend alone. My sleeping is still poor. I am always tired. Everything going around me is so overwhelming. Sometimes I wish I could somehow just disappear to some place and start over. People tell me things will get better, but what do I do until then and when will things start to get better. Tomorrow, next week, next month, next year, when. I know without me the kids will be broken up at the very least. There are so many things around here that needs to be done. Although I am outgoing and able to talk in front of groups of people without any problem. I have always been poor at talking on a telephone. I get nervous, can not follow what the other person is saying, and confused. Donna was so very good at it. Boy was this weekend lonely. Now I can not sleep. At least I will have people around me again. What do I need in my life? Other than Donna I do not know. This life is not worst much to me. If I did not have this outlet, things would be worst for sure. I miss Donna terriblely. I am so very tired of crying, feeling sad, and being so tired all the time. Maybe I will lay down and rest my body even if I do not sleep much. Thank you for listening. TomD

I know it's a cliche, but just take it one day at at time, Tom, one day at a time.