My blood sugars have been all over the place lately. The last 3 days I have had really bad migraine headaches in the afternoon - out of curiosity - I checked my bs - low 70's to high 60's - eating helped the headaches. No headache today, but just started feeling "bad" my hr was up to 86 (high for me) checked, and today bs is 145(checked 15 min later and it was 143) - 2.5 - 3 h after last meal - no way it should be that high with what I ate. My synthroid dose got dropped and I am feeling hypo again - I know that's contributing - but bottom line, since I'm pre-diabetic anyways, I'm afraid it won't make any difference if I've crossed the line. I'm getting a new monitor tomorrow - mine is 2 years old and I question the accuracy. I know they read less accurately at both ends of the scale. I know these numbers aren't horrible - but they are very much out of line for me - I'm trying to follow trends. My endo is out of town for the next 2 weeks. Any thoughts?

it's not the end of the world.

yeah - I know - I just kind of feel like I'm in limbo with the diabetes stuff - especially since I know that my insulin levels are low and not high. As is true for most people here, diabetes fears were the driving force behind adopting a healthy lifestyle and I find running in particular really stabilizes my levels. Not being able to do that for at least another 4 -6 weeks is really tough. But - no where near as bad as actually living with having diabetes for years as most of you have been doing. Guess I was a little depressed last night and needed to vent. Reality check - cinch my belt and really be strict with my diet. Thanks, Joe

Not being able to do that for at least another 4 -6 weeks is really tough. But - no where near as bad as actually living with having diabetes for years as most of you have been doing.

Not to make light of your concern -- I certainly wouldn't "wish" diabetes on anyone, but after 23 years with it this month, I still don't understand much of the fear that surrounds the disease (other than fear of the unknown, which can always be as bad as we let it be). After more than two decades --- thousands of blood bests and injections (before I went on the insulin pump six year ago) -- I've just never thought it's that big of a deal. In fact, it's one of the more controllable diseases there is. I have thyroid disease and went through a cancer scare and both of these have certain qualities of helplessness associated with them that diabetics aren't forced to face. The fact is if a genie popped on my shoulder and granted me three wishes, being cured of diabetes wouldn't be one of them... the genie would have to give me at least half a dozen wishes before diabetes would even enter my mind. Please understand I'm not saying this to make light of your concern -- I do realize that my views aren't so common -- but I've been thinking about your post for a few days now and felt the need to respond... if you're going through "the beginning of the end," I'm here to tell you that I've been living in the end for a looong time and it's really not so bad.

Thyroid stuff is very frustrating to me -- mostly because any adjustments in medication take weeks to show up in test reports.... 1 cool thing about diabetes: if I change insulin levels, I know within hours if it was a good idea.

Wish I could say the same, Bear Poop! To you Pool Runner, be really careful about getting down on this stuff. For the most part we are a happy bunch here and I think a lot of it is because of the support we find here, on other forums, and with family and friends who understand and support us. It does take some time to get used to our diabetic persona. At some point we come to the realization that work and determination is involved if we are going to stay healthy and minimize complications. I grant you that for some it is a fairly easy road while for others, especially those who did not get DXed early, or for whatever reason, find it difficult to maintain the disease properly, the path can be a difficult one. That's where the occasional venting helps and the replies we get in return rekindle our motivation. Hang in there!

Drama? What drama? I didn't see any drama! Hey, don't apologize one bit and certainly don't feel that you can't spout off once in a while. This is the stuff that this forum is all about. Your frustration is the real face of diabetes and what better place is there to share it than where there are other diabetics? So don't apologize, and whenever you feel the urge, let 'er rip! - John

aww these are happy tears - wish we could have a group hug