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Ok bearing the soul a little here but... I am recovering from an eating disorder.. I have gained a lot of weight and finally feel healthy enough mentally to begin to let go of the extra weight. I am comfortable with that but the problem is, counting calories can still be a trigger for me. I tend to get kinda OCD abou it. I have found I'm ok if I'm just keeping track but the minute I try to set a goal for myself BAM! I can feel it coming on. That being said, I really do need to find someway to get healthy with the food that I eat. I know to avoid a lot of sugar and fat but I don't feel like I can get healthy with just trying to limit certain foods cuz that's not healthy for me either. Please understand I'm really trying to get to a healthy place and I've been seeing a counselor about all the stuff but I just get a little confused on how to get healthy without jeopardizing all the progress that I've made...me and food haven't exactly had the best relationship so far in life... Any suggestions?
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Another person in recovery: restricter (calorie counter), running as calorie-deficit creator, EDNOS. I basically don't think I will ever be able to go back to calorie counting, it is just too slippery a slope. I also have to be really careful not to get too hungry because when i feel that deep gnawing emptiness, it is a physical sensation that I'm addicted to, and that pulls me into a negative thought spiral. For me, it's really hard because my weight doesn't reflect how healthy I am. I used restriction and running to lose weight in a really unhealthy way -- I felt crappy all the time, but was never an "unhealthy" weight. So, now that I would like to lose weight, and refuse to feel crappy, I don't know which side of which line I'm on and how to evaluate my own progress... Really liberating to see so many people here who I know from around RA who are brave enough to stand up and talk about this. I agree with what most others have said here. I made a lot of progress through looking at "Intuitive Eating" (which is similar to what Chloe was talking about), and I also have found a lot of emotional support at something-fishy.org on their forums. Also: If people think that an ED Recovery Support User Group would be useful here on RA, I would step up as a moderator/group owner -- though I have no real clue what that would entail. MTA: spelling/grammar
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