My original thought was to quietly disappear.  I cannot run now or likely anytime in the near future.  This, as you might have noticed, is a forum about running.  But, many here were not inclined to let me go so quietly.  I saw the many queries asking where I am in the daily.  I have received a few notes outside the forum too.  You are all such wonderful people and have been so supportive that I wanted to just say something to let you know how much I have appreciated it.  

I am not sure this is goodbye.  I may pop in to the daily with a post once and awhile.  Alas, I am addicted to the daily.  (I know, for example, that biketm's never ending job saga has not ended!  I know that SueT48 just paid a boat load for orthotics.  I know that Jlynne is having foot issues . . .)  I suspect that I will continue to follow the daily.  But I am not sure how often I will post.

For those that want to know here are the gory details about my current situation.  On mother's day I tried run/walking a 10K race.  It was a disaster.  By the end of the race it was clear that 14 months off had done me little good.  I have not run since.

Today I saw orthopedist number three.  He wants to perform a battery of tests one of which is a fancy MRI.  I suspect his goal is to see what if anything can possibly be done surgically.  He was clear that if it comes to surgery it may not work and may make things worse.

So here I am.  I may never be able to run, bike, or ski again.  Sitting for long periods may remain painful for the rest of my life.  If waiting for my body to heal itself is my only option, then the wait will at best be measured in years, not months or weeks.  Such is life.

I'm also frustrated for you that you haven't seen progress in your long and patient rehab, 2Kitty.  Your postings would certainly be missed although I understand that you may not really want to read the daily reminders of running when you are unsure of your own running fate at this time. BUT, with that said, being an active runner is not a pre-requisite here. Running may be what brought us all together initially, but I would hope that the friendships that have formed beyond that are the real glue here - and not just the status of being a runner.

 

thanks for the update and for not quite saying goodbye. . . would have not liked it too much had you just disappeared with no word. A few folks have done that for one reason or another in the past and I still think of them occassionally and wonder what ever became of them.

Darn it TwoCat...What does your editor have to say???? I echo what Jlynne has to say. You're being here makes me look normal.

aw rats

 

I hope you hang in, and keep us in the loop on how you are doing.  I haven't posted nearly enough for the last couple years, but I have been a regular lurker.  back in the CR days (I was a charter member, and nearly the first poster on CR) I was a regular  poster. 

 

I posted a bit here after the melt down then I had an injury that sidelined me for a year.  I lurked, but it was hard to post as a "non runner" 

 

I lurked (and still mostly lurk) since I recovered.  I really need to get into the habit of posting often.  I hope you don't fall out of the habit.

 

Twocat.....your a valuable member of this community. There's nothing to add sitting in the shadows.

 

Harvey Penick was one of the greatest golf coaches ever and did so from a wheel chair.......and I'm not saying your destined for a wheel chair....I'm saying you don't have to run to offer us what you have.

 

I'll admit....I'd probably quietly go away too if I couldn't run. But I'm asking that you don't.

 

I also hope that you will find the joy that running brings. And I hope that comes in form of running. But there are other gifts.

 

I'll add your intentions to my prayers tomorrow.

Matt, you are a very gifted, caring and wonderful person.  Why this is happening to you seems so unfair.  As is life. 

 

If you need to be less of a presence here, of course, that's understood.  We don't want to be the salt in your wounds.  If, however, you feel like dropping in from time to time, please do......no need to keep up on the daily, just leave a post of what's up in your world.

 

 

Dick Beardsley got ground up in a farm accident and was told he'd never run again.  He's running now, and still pretty fast.  After Daniel had his running accident (the little dog attack) and shattered his ankle, his surgeon told me he may be able to bike again but he'd never run again.  He's running, and continuing to increase his times.  The docs don't have a corner on certainty is all I know.  Be open to possibilities.

 

All the very best to you.  I'm so glad I had the chance to meet you and hope I'll have the chance to meet up with you again in the future.

 

Godspeed,

A

 

 

Twocat, I've felt bad as you've tried to recover and return to running for a long time.  This latest news is especially upsetting.  I hope you will keep looking for a solution and that it will eventually be found.  Lurk and post as you feel comfortable with.  Please don't go away completely. 

 

TomS

So Sorry to hear this twokitty, AKA  The Muffin Man

 I fully understand not wanting to come here when down and out . I had to take a 3 month leave also because coming here makes me want to run so much that I made bad decisions during my recovery. I was always amazed at your ability to stay so positive during this whole mess. I know at some point you will return and I know from experiance everyone here will welcome you back into the fold like you were never gone.

Good luck,

 

Larry