Cuch is riding her bike 50 mph for 100 miles and the Cat is in Aruba.  Up is down. 

Thanks for remembering my unimpressive unpublished log Lance.

All of us endurance idiots have that time when the body and the mind say screw this, give up, walk, stop and we have all learned to find that one stupid brain cell in our heads that tells keep going, don't give up, and suck it up you loser, pain is only temporary

Sailor. I like this.

So I have come to conclusion while typing my log entries. It is easy to think that races are easy, it is only when you start training for them you realize how huge the mountain in front of you is. My body just can't double workouts 4 days a week. It can't take a 4hr 30 min, 70 mile bike ride yesterday and then a 13 mile long runin 95 degree heat so hot I leave wet shoe prints on the pavement the next day. I am just not that good.  I have no idea how people can do a full Ironman or a 100 mile Ultra.  I am at my max right now and failing miserably at it. I will run this race the best I know how but it will suck every which way sucking can suck. I guarentee that. 

This sounds like the way you are supposed to feel under a full training load - grumpy, tired and generally shitty.  Racing is not training - you'll be fine on race day (as long as you don't go right over that edge like I think I did for Boston).  It's a fine line, but I really think you are going to surprise yourself.  Keep at it, don't waver now. 

 I am not waivering, I am just running zig-zag as there are days the body just doesn't want to go but I can make it go somewhat and then thre are days where the body just can't go even if I wanted it to. I agree with that fine line. Least after a 4-5 years of running I am pretty in tune with what I can handle and what will push to far, without that knowledge i would be screwed right now.

I think you need to look at it as "play"  -- many of us work 10-12 hours day. Many of us spend 8-10 hours on doing yard work on a Saturday plus training.

Yes -- you will be tired as hell at the end of an Ironman but during it you will be having fun and getting to do what you love to do for the entire day.

Break it up and don't look at it as 13-15 hours of work.

You get to take a break between each event.  You get to eat. You can walk if you want to on the run and not feel bad about it.

It's just an awesome day outside doing what you love. 1st or finishing at 16:59:59 -- it doesn't matter.

Yeah- the last couple hours suck a bit -- but the last 5 minutes makes it all worth it and as you cross the line you hear what will forever be eteched in you brain and can never be taken away ".... You Are An IronMan!"

5 minutes later you will say "never again" but the next day  as you realize how good you body feels - you will want to do it again, swear you will change some things and come back.

 Thakns for the positive support and good advice from someone who has done so much. I just have to break mine up and not look at it as 6-7 hours thank gosh.  I have to say "I am a Half Ironman" but your words still ring true nomatter the distance. I am sure I will enjoy it, I always do, I will bitch during and be tired but my one and only goal is FINISH, no matter how, whether I walk, run or crawl, just finish.

Then again, maybe you do just suck.

 You sound like Allycia, she was on the sideline at my first marathon and it was the home stretch and she yells stuff like "get your ass moving" "run faster" etc, this older lady turns to her and says "hey you can't talk to him lik ehtat he just ran 26 miles.  She replies, it is what he wants to hear, positive re-enforcement doesn't cut it.  You two are very similair.