Notes
I wish I could tell you the time of my race but to be honest I am afraid to look at the results. I did a quick look but when I when I went farther down the list my stomach got worse and I felt awful about myself. I waited two days to write about this race because if you asked what happened I couldn't tell you. Simply I just struggled. I've been struggling these past couple of months heck this whole year including cross country. It’s been since Christmas where it has certainly been affecting me. I swear the past couple of months have been awful for me. I pray that when I tie my shoes for a run that I will feel fine and everything be okay, but it hasn’t. Every time I start a run, I feel like demons surround me and I have no answer for them. Its been so bad where I feel like I can’t do normal stuff now, and every time I’m around people beside my room I want to run away. For real it’s been a struggle and I punch a wall everyday hoping that I can feel better. I just want to get over this.