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Kindness Day!
October 4 - Milwaukee, WI - 26.2
November 14 - Richmond, VA - 26.2
March 21 - Virginia Beach, VA - 26.2
4 miles for me!
Great run in 25 degrees! Lizzie weather Very pretty run with snow on the ground (not much). I think one of the reasons why I love when it snows here is because it is also gone within 24-48 hours. Anyway, that is a WRAP. Rest mode until Saturday. I have a massage tomorrow. Thinking my pre race meal on Friday night will be french toast!
With how busy I was yesterday, I feel like today should be Friday.
Docket – Aw, I loved your marathon RR! I LOVE all the swag you got with Indy! Indy is definitely on my bucket list. Maybe 2021? I am sorry that you had some troubles near the halfway point, but you didn’t quit!!! 😊 Woohoo!! That RR makes me excited to marathon this weekend!
Cathy - When you used Racejoy live tracking during Lakefront, did it drain your battery? HCDH really wants me to use that so its easier to find me throughout the course - but I am worried its going to drain my battery. Also thought about not listening to anything until Mile 20.
Happy Wednesday!
Hey hey. About 5ish dark, cold and windy miles early this morning. At least the wind was from the south so not quite as biting. Snow on the way but hopefully less than an inch. Finally got my screen back yesterday so all my fixit jobs are done! Walkthrough of my new place tomorrow after work. Then it's all about the move!
Kat - I am SO sorry you are feeling so down about work! I do think that everyone feels less than adequate at times. I know I can feel like a "poser". But, you just have to remember how awesome you really are! Think of a time you totally kicked butt! Because another totally kick butt time will come again to boost that confidence. Weird about your fence. Thank you sooooooooooooo much for the advice on the calming spray for the kit kat! I bought some yesterday.
Karen - how did that long run go yesterday? Another one today? Then, taper soon? Exciting the condo will go up soon. Just in time for ski season! Troubleshooting over email sounds kinda ideal - no phone calls!!
Cathy - yeah, you are right - crazy COLD weather here! We are also about 20* below normal. Might be 40* this weekend which is exciting! Dang, killer workout yesterday. I'm glad I have my Internet friends to remind me of the books I've read! LOL That's nice that DD will wait to start volleyball until January. The state tournament just finished up here on Saturday and the big club teams had tryouts on Sunday. I couldn't believe it! The poor girls must have been so tired. Then they practice all week to put them on a team.
Liz - yep, yoga sculpt. Feels good to do a hot workout when it's so cold out. Will probably do it more once I move since it's super close to new place. Of all the days off you get off work you don't get Christmas Eve?! Wut?! haha, I know, banks and government and all that. Honestly, though, my family would just do a light early dinner and then open a few presents. Sounds like Tina's Christmas is a much bigger event. Anyway, hope it all works out for you. Congrats on another training cycle COMPLETE! Does your fancy watch do tracking? I honestly have no idea but, I thought I had heard that at some point. Would that work instead of your phone? Just a thought I had is all.
Damaris - loved your RR! Great pics, too. Sounds like you are BACK in action!
Okay, work calls. Later, peeps.
Running with the Turtles
Kindness is a good thing. 4 TM miles this morning. At least it's a "feels like" of 1 already. Something new on my weather app, "caution advised if outside for extended periods of time". We should reach the 30's this weekend!
Lizzie, yay for another training cycle complete! Enjoy rest mode and the massage! Indy in 2021 sounds like a plan. Hmmm, my battery was low by the end of the race with Racejoy, but I was also listening to music... it wasn't dead though. But I learned that even though they say that you can start it up to 20 minutes before the race, don't do it or all your splits will be off, and it will also tell you your splits, which is confusing. I used to use the RoadID app, that worked OK. You don't have an iPhone, do you? There is also the Find my phone feature for iPhones.
Sandy, good for you for getting outside! I am not feeling running in the dark and cold. Walking the dogs in the cold is enough! Yay for getting things done at your condo and the move!! The club VB schedule seems to be pretty crazy. I'm kind of glad that DD is not interested. She really liked her VB team, but her (future) high school is breaking off from the league and forming their own team. She is expected to play on that team. Almost everyone on her last team is going to a different HS. So next year she will not be playing with her team which kinda sucks. But she is good at making friends!
Damaris, you are back!! Great RR, and congrats again. It sounds like you really pushed through there in those middle miles!
Cathy
Former Bad Ass
Morning! RD for me. I am sad I didn't get to try running in the 4-7F range but I'll have plenty of chances later, ha. It was 9F when I left for work, now it's 14F feels like fucking 0. HAHAHA.
Liz, good luck this weekend! Woke up thinking is Liz running a marathon this weekend after her wedding and honeymoon? Bad ass.
Sandy, nice run.
Cathy, we should reach the 30s as well here. And I think 49F for Thanksgiving week.
Damaris
Ugh. Feels like Monday. Again. No run. Can't breathe.
Stuffy and sneezy. It was 26F this morning!!! Had a flat tire after I got to work (actually DH flatted after dropping his stuff off at the boat, but he's leaving so it is my problem. Thanks a lot). Had roadside assistance change the flat, drove to the tire store. They should have my new ties this afternoon, so I have to return after 2 pm.
I'm just having a whiny day today. Hope yours is better.
WINE o'clock somewhere!
Hoping for kindness today...
Lizzie, Funny on not listening to anything until late in the race. I'm the opposite when I do listen to music. The first mile or two when it is crowded I go without, then music, then it irritates me and I turn it off later in the race and just be in my own head. Only for road stuff. Trails I never use music.
Damaris, never said congrats on the race!!
Sandy, good luck with the move, kit kat, and all things involved in it. Feliway won't fix it, but might lessen anxiety.
Cathy, did I read right, it feels like 1 out?
Sue, sorry you are feeling whiny, you're not alone. Bummer about the tire and having to deal with it all on your own.
Thanks for all the support. Yesterday was a titch better. The tech was icy to me until the last hour where he warmed slightly. We have back techs (in the treatment area) and front techs who do rooms, which is where I usually am. He works mostly in the back, but is my dedicated room tech today, oh boy...
It is easy to forget that everyone has felt like me at times. When it happens though, you feel all alone. Speaking of alone...WOW, I read the most poignant post about suicide yesterday on our vet only forum. The forums cover everything from medicine to mental health. Luckily there are specialists who work for the forum in all aspects - even mental health. This woman wrote the most touching message about her real desire to commit suicide. Like, she has a solid plan. Brought me to tears. The vet community has one of the highest suicide rates all all professions. Far higher than the general population. Compassion fatigue. I'm not saying I am at her stage in any way, but it rang so true in so many ways. MANY MANY people responded that they feel just as her in the loneliness, frustration, sadness. It is a very tough profession. Even more so in the emergency aspect which I do (in addition to regular practice.) I know I am in a better place and frame of mind than when I was still in Seattle, but it still hurt to read it. BUT, it was comforting to see so many who have the same issues speak out, letting her and others know we really aren't alone. I've often wondered about suicide and what tips people over the edge, especially with my ex-boyfriend of many years ago committing suicide - he and I were still very close. I was not in a good place in Seattle, I often felt hopeless. The move to TX has been life changing mentally (and kicking the awful ex to the curb.) I now have a Phoenix tattoo to remind me that I am strong. I made it through some awful emotionally draining crap and have made a new and better life for myself in many ways. (Still slightly lonely, but not desperately so.)
I have NEVER said any of this out loud to anyone before except a little bit to my long ago ex who was long gone before my woes in Seattle. You all are my safe spot.
You ladies are my peeps. Some only virtual, some in real life. Thank you all for being here for me and everyone.
OK, downer done for the day.
I am a little hesitant to post this... Am I being dramatic, scary, sad?? I guess in reality, I am just being honest.
Off to shower shortly and find food for lunch, then head to work.
K
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Kathryn – Your post brought me to tears! I am so happy that you are in a better place mentally, now. I hope you know that if you ever need us in any way at any time of night – we will be there! I can’t imagine doing what you do everyday and can very much see how the community has a very high suicide rate. HCDH knew someone in the profession – I think she was a nurse of some sort at the pet emergency hospital up the street from us, she had to quit after a suicide attempt. I just can’t imagine. I think we all have had our moments with loneliness, just know we are always here for each other!!! Very brave of you to post your feelings – it can be scary. Safe spot - love that and love you! XOXOX
Trails
Kat, I read this yesterday and it really hit home. https://medium.com/personal-growth/the-art-of-intimacy-75bd969f6b4b
It captured exactly how I feel almost every single day. I can't make friends at work cause I may have to audit them. No one lives close and the few people out there are way, way too religious for me. DH and I rarely talk especially about anything important and all of my friends are on line.
That said I understand how you feel. Thoughts of suicide have floated through my head but the thought of the pain it would cause to my DD and parents have always pushed them aside. If you ever, ever need someone to talk to you can call me anytime and I'll be happy to listen.
On a better note I'm hiring a coach to help me get my 50 miles, my 100k and then the 100 miles. One of the coaches has the same thyroid issues I have and she's done Badwater 135.
Kathryn, glad you are in a better place now. I remember when you decided to move from Seattle, settle all your debts, etc. Sounded like you needed the change and I'm glad it's worked out better. You can always voice issues like that with us. Even if we are only ears, we are here for you in spirit.
Susan, hoping you feel better soon.
Diane, good luck!
Kathryn, I am glad that you shared with us. I hope you know that you are not alone. You are in the health profession, I have the utmost respect for anyone that chooses that. Just to make that choice shows the compassion that you have. And you are strong! I hope that you continue to feel better. What Liz said is true, I think we all have our moments of loneliness, it's human. It's always been a comfort for me to know that there are ladies here that I can reach out to! We will always support you. Our struggles may seem different, but really they are very similar.
Zumba was a Pitbull vs Yankee Daddy themed so I wore ear plugs and did my best not to trip or hit anyone. LOL Then Butts & Guts. Fun working out in different ways. Will do Vinyasa class tonight. Roads/sidewalks are that fun mix of bare cement and ice so tough to run on plus single digits.
Lizzie-Our snow is lingering on. Woohoo! Race weekend ahead. time to strut your peacock self!
Sandy-nice miles!
Cathy-yeah for the 30's! LOL
Damaris-you'll learn not to worry about the actual numbers very much. Cold is just cold.
Sue-so sorry to hear about the breathing issues. Been meaning to ask you your opinion on canned and packaged tuna/salmon. Are there brands that you would recommend or things to look for? I've been purchasing the Safe Catch Elite brand that says it tests each fish for mercury.
Kat-hugs! I could see being in your profession as being very draining. Many times the situation puts you into a situation which is outside of your control. Time with patient being at a premium, lack of information from the owners, limited resources in terms of staff or technology, limited resources in terms of knowledge since you have to work with so many different KINDS of patients, then the huge one of owners who don't care or who can't afford treatment. No wonder you feel inadequate much of the time. The system is kind of set up that way. Maybe do more with Vet groups, conferences, networking type of things so that you feel you are doing all that you can do regardless of the situation being out of your control. That way you know it's not you, plus you do get to talk with others in the field. Or be ready for a career shift. You've done hard things before, you know you can do things that you doubted were possible. Not just talking running stuff. We all believe in you! Go back and read what you wrote, knowing that sharing what is going on in your heart and head is always good then look for the positive points in what you wrote. There are many of them.
Diane-Yeah on the coach! Thanks for sharing the personal growth piece too!
Lisa
Yeah, but so far I don't really feel cold. Yeah, I can get a bit cold while walking around in 10F with only a jacket but it has not felt like I'm dying.
The best news is that my lungs are fucking awesome here.
Kat - thank you for sharing!! That took courage and strength and vulnerability. All necessary, IMO, to foster intimacy and a connection to others which we ALL crave. I was a big time lurker when you made your move from SEA to San Antonio and I was, and still am, SO impressed!! That took a lot of strength and courage right there!! SO happy you are in a better place. And, I SO respect you in your profession. You CAN do hard things and will continue to do hard things because you are strong. And you have this group to always be here for you virtually and in real life!! I can't WAIT to hang with you in a few weeks
Damaris - good golly. Not sure who has a hotter internal furnace you or Lizzie.
Lisa--Canned tuna and salmon--yes, I do eat them. I tried a small batch brand canned tuna from Oregon (don't remember the name) and it was really good. I think moderation is the key--limit intake of tuna to once or twice a week due to mercury concerns. Real life story: one of my old boyfriends ate tuna and crackers every day for lunch. He had to have bloodwork--high mercury levels! Told ya.
Kat--I'm glad this forum is your safe place. I think that is true for many of us.
Feeling ok...I think drugs are helping. I was a little ticked that DH didn't take care of the car. They are about to sail, but he's not doing much of anything but standing around. He's on the boat now. They are supposed to leave the dock at 2, but it is too cold for me to stand outside and watch. If I wasn't sick I would go down to the dock (about 2 blocks away).
Wow Sandy!!!! How exciting ! When are you moving??