Notes
My CS is thriving right now. I NEED ANOTHER MIRACLE FOR ANOTHER MARATHON. Legs were so bad tonight . .. . . really ... really bad. I do question for the first time whether I should keep up with the running the way I do? Quality 1 Effort 10. This never . . . .ever happened this way before? WHY NOW? Nothing has prepared me for this. At least I can write about it.
Well this is it! Up and until I recover no more logging . . . no more timing of runs . . no more expectations . . no more miles gathering . . . just run without watch, without Garmin . . . just run with my body or just with my soul. Up and until I will feel my own body and flesh and my blood running in my veins then and only then I will time my runs. I need to feel my body again and not feeling invaded by an alien. It has been a tough day indeed. But this is the reality.
I can possibly wait and hope for another miracle. Everything in on hold. I will need all GODS WITH ME! I feel so let down and unable to accept what is happening. It is a psychological torture for my soul. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.