Notes
This run probably could have been better had I not been a Debbie Downer for most of the way. I just needed some down time - no pun intended. I needed to relax and ponder my existence...well, maybe I didn't go THAT deep. However, it was nice to just not stress too much as it is.
I don't know why, but I've been having body image issues. Ok, I do know why, but it's so silly. So what if my thighs are bigger? They've done a lot for me - they've carried me through all these runs for one. And why now? Why haven't these thoughts plagued me earlier? Why am I noticing it now??? I suppose that 4 pound increase on the scale was a contributing factor...and that one photo Jude took of me. My legs looked monstrous in that one. Yet, it could have been camera angle. I feel like I can't trust mirrors anymore. If I look good, I think the mirror is off. If I look bad, I scrutinize my legs upside down, trying to see how they REALLY look. How silly of me. I don't want to go down that road again, but at the same time, I feel like there must be SOMETHING I can do to make things better. Something not involving losing weight, but that would slim my legs down...and distribute some of that mass upwards!