Notes
I am gradually breaking the barriers of my now familiar enemy / CS. I feel stronger than CS even if it remains still in my physical body. As a runner I have learned to tolerate pain at all levels. This is what running has allowed me to experience more than anything else has. It has allowed me to deal with physical, mental and emotional pain and to learn to 'exceed' and 'overcome' all life setbacks.
My first mile was up hill and I would describe it as average in terms of pain. There seemed to be hope.
My second mile was tightness, pressure and compression and blockage of blood flow building up blockage in my veins and grounding me once again. At that point I was still running into 1 1/2 miles up hill. It was getting 'ugly' and I was getting alarmed again. Not a comfortable feeling when you are two miles away from home. It is a long way with CS.
At exactly end of 2ND mile down hill I stopped for 2 min and had a very good stretch of calves and quads supporting myself at a field metal gate. What a relief for the body this was! It felt exactly as almost I was opening my airway and was able to breath again after min of gasping for oxygen. Of course metaphorically this was happening in the lower part of the body and I instantly felt free, light and ready to set off for the steep hill again with a sense of control and longing to be part of that hill. From there onwards my steps took me home in a comfortable pace. I am so proud of myself and so thankful to God for showing me the way and giving me the strength to carry on. Only God knows how important running has now become for me. For a 1000 of reasons and for the simple one that I am a runner more than anything else.
Before I started my run I said to myself ............
Self Talk..........
'o.k Eleni you want to run second day in a row then you can only try. If it hurts to the point of excessive pain you then stop ...so, is nothing to lose apart from trying'.
I so well know this from past CS experience. It almost feels as taking the poison out of my body with it's own antidote. Meaning inject the body with what causes CS by itself. Exertion with Exertion. It is crazy but it works. It is almost fighting fatigue with fatigue. It is Just going up to a different level. The Mental Level. There is no other way. It is either this or stop running. And the latter is not an option..........NOT YET !!!!!!!