Notes
Legs were very deceptive today. Walking around was easy and legs felt strong during the daytime so naturally I decided instead of giving it a miss today to have another run. I aimed for strides around the 4 mile Springholm loop.
This run was one of pain. All 4 miles were agony. CS attack again when one does not expect it. I cannot trust this condtion any more. I do not know where I stand day in day out. Both legs struggled throughout the run. The fastest I could go was 9:39 down hill and in terms of effort it felt as if I was running 7 min mile. Not a nice feeling for any runner and something I would not wish to my worse enemy. The 1st mile was painful but I hoped that it would get better, the 2nd mile felt like the executioner on my body with the 3rd being the killer mile. The 4th was psychologically tolerable down hill but equally painful. So, now I have no illusions that times will get tougher before gets any better. If I could have stopped I would have done so but I was too hot and it was too windy for doing so. I felt like been between the devil and the blue sea tonight and not knowing what to do in complete confusion , emotional desperation and physical pain.
I need a break before the next long run. I was penalised for yesterday's Tempo Run. When CS everything comes with a price. I had not done any speed work or Tempo since 14th March and still does not allow me to go back to my usual self. It is the torment for my soul.
This was not an enjoyable run I regret to say something that I would avoid commenting but equally means being realistic and record the facts. I do not want many of these runs because I love running and this does not do any justice.