Notes
I am dreading putting this into writing but it may help me to accept the facts and hopefully deal with this condition. CS has returned in my running life as a punishment for doing speed. Today's run confirmed my fears as legs became unable to sustain the body (pain/tightness/gravity/pins and niddles on the inside of both lower legs) and I can go on and on. But this is enough. Words cannot speak for the way I feel. I have no plans but only to run whatever way I can without pain. No expectations and no goals at the present time. I felt so much pain inside me today that I run the 3rd mile so hard as almost to punish my body and make me win, make my mind and soul win. I run a 7:25 pace per mile and maybe this is my last fast mile in a while. It is hard and I do not want to be a hero. I am speechless for what is happening to me right now. So, the moment will dictate all my runs from now on and only the moment and time will tell what I want to do. No plans and no commitments. This is my last Log detailing my runs and the way I feel up and until I will be able to run again free of CS. It is not the end but I cannot write any more. I shall just record the distance I do but nothing else. My only purpose is to run whatever this will mean.