Notes
Still running and smiling. I run with Franc tonight or Franc with me. Franc did his own rounds around me back and fourth and side by side. It was a run in the dark although the daylight has started to extend during early evening. It is so good having the light. Not long now before we have the light morning and early evenings. Today the sun shone in the afternoon and what a difference this made even at work. We could see the light almost like living in a different part of the world. It is so much needed here in the gloomy, dark and wet Scotland. Good climate for the skin but not for the bones. Light is life.
Anyway, going back to my run the only thing is left for me to say is that I have now arranged a telephone appointment with my G.P to request that my operation needs to go ahead. I can no longer postpone this as the Hallux has become pretty aggressive even when seated at the office. This needs to be dealt with no matter what.
So, it is decision making time. Whatever I have tried to this day has not changed the course of this condition. I struck it lucky! An arthritic joint is an arthritic joint and been on the basis of the first metatarsal is serious business. One cannot run or push forwards, upwards, downwards etc. One is immobilised on the spot. And it is pretty nasty pain one cannot ignore. So, the process will start.
However, to the day that I will have to go under the knife I will be, hopefully, running a little whether sun or rain. And I will be treasuring every foot step I take like no other human on the planet. I am so grateful still for all my running miles to this day. Only a miracle now can stop me from having the operation. The process has started. Writing seems to be helping me coming to terms with things like this but I know in my heart that this may be my Ultra Marathon in my life for real 'Not been able to run for a while'. I feel strong to deal with it AND I SHALL THE BEST WAY I CAN.
. I am strong to deal with it and I will.