Notes
In a -4 Celcius morning temperature I set for my early run. From the very first step I could feel that legs (CS) was suprisingly very mild and that the verruca on the foot was just about 30% bothering me. I knew then that I would be able to put a 10 miler up on those Shawhead / God's Hills. So, my plan was to do the first 5 miles and then decide whether I would be strong enough and free of pain to do another 5. So, I run in familiar grounds monitoring the body at all times. The combination of songs at random in my ipod was amazing and lift my spirits and hopes.
At 5th mile point I felt still strong with no pain on the legs or verruca so I decided to take it a bit further taking a small risk I might have had to regret. The ugly thing is this was not a loop but only one way there and back so I had to weigh up carefully the pron's and con's espcecially in this cold / freezing weather. So, I did an extra 2 miles beyond familiar territory and decided to return at that point. Body changes drastically when CS is involved.
This was a tough course in terms of energy due to the constant hills and ups and downs. Legs, however, were coping fine. As I was running up steep hill for one mile I thought to myself that If I could manage this then it would be only a slight down hill run apart from a few bumps. I run well up hill at approximately 11th mile point. Then I started running from the inside again and when this happens there seems to be a harmony and a feeling of bliss. Mind stops counting the distance and the miles and focuses on the inside. What I call a bonus run in terms of quality.
So, as my run was getting better and better I decided to surprise myself and go up the God's Hills for about 2 miles which would mean that I was aiming for a 17 miler run. I knew I was becoming ambitious but I thought after all ...'Running The Boston Marathon' it is an ambition too. And the more I run now the more I will enjoy on the day but also guarrantee completion of the course. At that point Lovely Michael was singing one of my favourite songs ...'Speechless' and tears came to the eyes. Those tears were tears of happiness and connection to a supreme cause. There was Love in those lyrics and in my heart. Love for running, love for God and its creation, love for the world and the universe, love for Life.
So, here is how it went..............
"Speechless"
Your love is magical, that's how I feel
But I have not the words here to explain
Gone is the grace for expressions of passion
But there are worlds and worlds of ways to explain
To tell you how I feel
But I am speechless, speechless
That's how you make me feel
Though I'm with you I am far away and nothing is for real
When I'm with you I am lost for words, I don't know what to say
My head's spinning like a carousel, so silently I pray
Helpless and hopeless, that's how I feel inside
Nothing's real, but all is possible if God is on my side
When I'm with you I am in the light where I cannot be found
It's as though I am standing in the place called Hallowed Ground
Speechless, speechless, that's how you make me feel
Though I'm with you I am far away and nothing is for real
I'll go anywhere and do anything just to touch your face
There's no mountain high I cannot climb
I'm humbled in your grace
Speechless, speechless, that's how you make me feel
Though I'm with you I am lost for words and nothing is for real
Speechless, speechless, that's how you make me feel
Though I'm with you I am far away, and nothing is for real
Speechless, speechless, that's how you make me feel
Though I'm with you I am lost for words and nothing is for real
SpeechlessYour love is magical, that's how I feel
But in your presence I am lost for words
Words like, "I love you."
And I became speechless from the inside but so happy in that magic silence. My run of course in physical terms was tough but nothing is tough when the soul takes care of things. The mind becomes a slave to the the soul's demands and the body enjoys the bliss under the umbrella of the Soul.