Notes
An emotionless workout. Kind of need to vent a little in the next paragraph, I just need to get this off my chest so I can be the best teammate I can this weekend.
Up until yesterday I honestly thought I would be running this Saturday. I've been killing it in workouts and my times have been dropping drastically. Coach gave me some good reasoning why other people seemed like the better option to run, but I couldn't really process it at the time. Afterwords it felt like I was climbing the ladder and coach just decided to rip it out from under me. I was dumbfounded. Back in August I couldn't have even dreamed of being disappointed for not making the regionals lineup. I should be happy where I'm at, right? I am super disappointed about not racing, but hey, not everything can go your way.This workout tonight I just felt dead inside, like there was no point. After talking to Spitz I realized that I have an entirely new role on the team, that's to make sure everyone else is ready to go once the gun goes off. And you better believe I'm going to bring nothing but positive energy from here on out. So please if you are racing and did read this big sappy vent, please don't feel sorry for me. I just want to forget about it and move on.