Notes
I ran after the meet with Rick JD Jamie AJ and Casey then the girls. Rick paced Me JD and Jamie out for a mile in a half then I started to fall back then Jamie fell back around 2. I recaught Jamie in the kick but JD was long gone. Not that I didnt believe in myself but I kind of knew JD would be able to do more than me since rick was passing him. The only times I can really beat him are when he goes out stuipid. I figured he would run a huge PR with rick passing him. I tried to hang for as long as I could I just couldnt. I figured the only way I would win would be if Rick set the pace at something I could hold too because I know I could win in a kick. It was really emotional for me afterwords and I could not stop crying and everyone kept coming up to me and hugging me and telling me its okay which is nice and all I just wanted solitude after. Then when I got on the bus of course I was still crying and then someone decided to play big girls dont cry, and I dont know why but that made me start crying even more. I just wanted to stop crying so bad, but I couldnt. It just sucks that I cant be top 7, and that I cant have the same amount of a talent as everyone else. I worked my ass off from midway through cross last year up to now to make top 7 and it just sucks I couldnt do it today.