Notes
Welp, here's a thought dump.
I'm fine that 'm running a bit still. I'd be mad if I was still taking time off. The hard part is that this fall has been largely a bust. I just haven't had anything really go for me this year, and even when I put in extra effort to prioritize myself and getting all of it done well, things fall apart. So I think for my sake, I'll abandon the marathon train for now, hit up some 5k 10k stuff, and just try to have fun and make sure I get in everything I need to. I just need to get out of this rut. I know running is something that I never want to give up, and right now especually I want to throw my best shot at it and see what kind of talent is really hiding underneath. I don't really care if its 15:10 or 14:50 or anything else, but if I'm at my best and I run what I run, then I can't be mad, but I can be mad if I'm at 80% and run one of those. It's not about running hte fastest time, its about getting hte most out of myself. About caring and throwing myself at something bigger than me and greater than my ego.