Notes
I had been feeling off all week and went into this race almost dreading it, which is a terrible thing to do. For no reason at all I was pretty exhausted Friday night and went to bed at 9:30 and didn't wake up until 8. I had some difficulty falling asleep, but only felt like pre-race nerves. Looking back I'm trying to find what I could have done differently to have a better race. Sure it was hotter than it's been all outdoor season and incrediably sunny. Sure the wind picked up for the race. Sure my legs weren't feeling perfect and fresh, but more tight. Sure I wasn't exactly in a racing mind set.
Sometimes I get set on thinking that racing is easy and feels efortless, so I don't it will be difficult to get a good time. Stumbles like this remind me that it isn't easy and you only get out of it what you put into it. Perhaps if I was mentally in a better spot then I would not have felt all the physical limitations. I don't know if it is exactly "normal" to get into a running depression, but I feel like that happens to me. Sometimes I feel like no matter how fast I run I'll never be happy. I think the reason for all of this is pretty dumb, I think it's just due to the fact after hitting ECAC standards, which is typically been my long term goal, there is no other standards to chase down. Obviously I want to get faster, but getting ECAC and breaking 18 were two goals I thought I'd never achieve (in Indoor) and now I just have to create a new standard for myself to chase.
hmm from a race perspective I don't have too much to talk about. From what I thought the race went out slow, so I took the lead. 3 laps in I was feeling crummy and just figured I'd just wait for lisa to take to lead. Then bascially I had more trouble sticking with her than I thought I would. It was frustrating because I knew she wasn't running all that fast and I should be able to do that no problem, oh well. Her winning time ended up being 18:15.