Notes
"Most pathetic, embarrassing moment of my life. Any sort of confidence I had is gone. I ran worse than I ever have before, ever. Ever. Ever. Why have I even been training at all? I don't even know my time but I know that it was in the area of godawful. Why do I care so much about something I suck at? Felt terrible after 200 meters. Felt worse than terrible after 1000 meters. HORRIBLE."