Notes
Elmhurst 4k
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!
SO FRUSTRATING!!!! This ended up being slower than the threshold I maintained for 3.5 miles two weeks ago. I panicked. I went out in a 1:29 quarter and was already a few seconds behind everyone else on the team. I'd already psyched myself out about it being my first race back and didn't know how fast I could go and didn't want to die by trying to hold on to the pack, so I backed off, but I never got back. I spent the whole race wanting to be done and already mentally finished. It was really defeating, coming off a summer where I felt like I trained hard and every single workout I did I had to work to carve out time for, not having a good sense of where my fitness level was going into that and anxious to see, coming back with that result. Yuck. I feel like I worked a lot harder than last summer and I don't want a repeat of last season. It's great that the team did so well, but I wasn't a part of it, and that's almost harder to deal with than if we hadn't done well overall.