Notes
Ugh. A rough day that started rough the night before. I was worried something was wrong the night before as I went to the bathroom more than usual but I knew I had an issue when I woke up at 2 am feeling crummy. I tried to go back to bed but was restless until it was time to get up and shake things out. It was frustrating in the morning because I had a hard time eating anything- toast, coffee and Gatorade all tasted worse than it usually did. I ate what I could but it had a hard time going down.
As the race started, I tried my best to fight through it and I ran really well through the first 3 miles. Two of those were within the 6:05-6:10 pace that was the goal and the second mile was faster as it was mostly downhill. I still had a rumbling and bloating in my stomach though and it just got worse. I still felt relatively good through 5.5 miles but after that, it started to get worse. I skipped the water around then as I didn't feel I could keep anything down and I would have had to go way out wide on a turn. My lowest moment was shortly after the 8 mile mark. I turned a corner to climb a short hill and by the time I reached the top, I almost vomited. I was able to pick it up after that as I went down a hill but the same thing happened after mile 10. As I felt worse and worse, my pace slowed but I pushed on as fast as I could. I did have a moment after mile 9 where I was able to pick it up after seeing Rob. Thanks for pushing me when I looked like shit. After I hit mile 12, I was able to pick it up a bit to finish stronger but it wasn't enough. 1:23:03 is very disappointing.
I wasn't able to eat or drink anything for a couple hours afterwards and that is unusual. As I am writing this at 8:00 pm, I still don't feel 100% but it is a little better than I felt this morning.
My right groin held up for the first half and started to hurt in the second but it was more of an afterthought since I felt like crap. I can run through that.
I am really mad about this. I know I am in pretty good shape right now and today was really tough. I just feel like I am letting all my training partners and my coach down every time I run poorly. I am completely ashamed of what happens and my confidence is at a new low. I'm feeling really bummed when my training was going so well.