Notes
With cremah and a bit of Beaulah and Matt somebody I don't know. Been a while since have felt able to even try this way and it didn't disappoint. The effort level was very high...could feel my heart in my brain and thought I might puke at 3. It is a very good lesson not to take it for granted to just be able to go out doing things whenever you want cause you are healthy enough...not injured or the fittest you have ever been and how many times I have just been out here doing just that. It is not in me to put any run down anymore. No matter how I feel...or how hot or cold it is or whatever the fuck. If I am running...it is good.
This transfers this to everything...for instance. If I am seeing...it is good. If I am sitting...it is good. If I am creating...it is good. If I am feeling...it is good. I can not see bad in anything if there is always the good there in front. Bad becomes something other than bad. A pointer to what is all but temporary perhaps.