Notes
I find getting what I need on the other end of the high and mighty spectrum works. Playing the victim works too...just as much as being on top. It generates attention in some form and I as a self don't give a shit if that is coming from praise...Or coming from pity. Just as long as I THINK someone is there watching...really that is all that is needed...whether they are actually watching or not in truth matters none.
A pathetic way to snake through life maybe...honestly I don't know but if it annoys me...then I will just enjoy being in that. Cause if I swim in annoyance...like I swim in water, I will move in grace cause I've learned how to not drown. Enough on my end.
There was this yellow lab mix out there today...he came running out hot and wanted a piece of ass. I grabbed a rock, threw it and told him to fetch. He ran off after it but a few seconds later...as I myself ran, he started the chase. So I picked up a stick this time and pointed it at his face and said stop! He stopped short and ran away a bit. Then this became a game that lasted for about a half a mile. However...he no longer wanted a piece of ass...he just wanted to play. Then as I came to the road...he disappeared. I would guess he lives in one of those houses off to the side a bit after oak st...fyi to you trail runners. He's not a bad dog...just looking for some attention.
See how life shows you your own shit when you are open enough to see it?