Notes
Consistency. ha, that's different for a change.
This for reason unknown hurt much more on a perceived level. I was quite sleepy tired when I started but manipulated my way out anyway which is easy to do with asking myself one simple question...ha.
It is a risk running when feeling this way. Not having the strength to pick feet up adequately means tripping up or stumbling...it fucking hurts trying to not fall. I simplify don't have the strength to stop it without causing stabbing pain. So I am thinking maybe just letting myself wipe out would be the better option if I can erase that instinctive response to break my fall. No you know what? Fuck it man...what is pain anyway? Don't know? Pain is fuck you, that's what it is. And fuck you is pain wrapped in sugary bits and chocolate sauce.
This log entry is getting darker by the word...good bye.