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missed the group run again. sucks cause i wanted at least 7 more today.
was curious though where i am. so i cracked it hard, spittin, coughing...drool the works. i'm pretty sure the distance is a little off, so i am disappointed with this. it is not where i want to be. also i know i won't be doing this in a race. i don't even want to race. god damn anxiety sucks me dry every time. and for what? disappointment after disappointment. i don't even know what the hell i'm doing anymore.
there is so much more to me than this. fuckin chill.