Notes
Went in today trying to force it and clearly that just wasn't going to happen. I felt kinda heavy for some reason and breathing was not easy from the start. Negative thoughts started creeping in about 1K in and that's when I started to struggle. Pissed at myself cause I couldn't shake the ANTS and they just kept getting worse and worse. Didn't give a damn who passed me but when Ben told me to stick on his shoulder I was finally able to stop with the pity party and get my head out of my ass. Was already too late to do anything but finished with Ethan. Obviously the time is bad but hopefully one step closer to getting myself mentally back into it. Struggled with breathing afterwards so I took Ben's inhaler and went on a longer cooldown.
Not that these guys ever read these, but if you do thanks Ben, Roger, and Sebhat for helping try to engage my mind in parts 3 and 4. It really means alot