Notes
There was very little that was good about this run, except that it is over and it counts.
I was laboring even though the pace was slow, everything hurt, I felt not fit, etc, etc, etc.
One conundrum is this: My knee feels better when I run more efficiently, i.e. faster, but my fitness isn't there to support that, so it feel shard. Finally about 4 miles into this run I thought Effff it, just run faster and more efficiently. I immediately felt better and lighter, only to feel exceptionally tired about 1.5 miles later.
It just feels hard. It doesn't feel fun. And I'm so paranoid about my knee and thinking about it every step that its not possible to turn my brain off or enjoy the normal therapeutic parts of running.
UGH. Also, that was an unfocused and redundant rant.
On the positive side, my knee still feels fine, I'm running decent mileage, and the only way to get more fit is to struggle to get there. So here I am, slowly improving everyday. At least that's the hope.