Notes
Another DNF, new year, still same me
Started the race and immediately started overheating, not sure why but was feeling incredibly hot, started panicking bc I thought I was going to pass out and think it only made matters worse. Was convinced I was not going to be able to finish without passing out and battled with this thought from laps 2-5. Went thru the 1k and realized race wasn't going as badly as i thought (wanted to go through in 3:14/15 and was 3:15), had a moment of "i can do this" and then idk just got in my head and dropped out at like 1450m
once i stopped I realized, yes i was extremely warm but no i prob wasnt going to pass out and felt stupid. Felt even worse bc I had made a move to go in front of my teammate who helped lead me laps 3-5 bc I felt i could work with her and help us move to the next pack only to drop out exactly a lap later...very disappointed in myself and thought I was passed all this stuff but guess its something I'll always have to practice - learning how to reframe thoughts during a race from a full on panic attack.
Wanted a WO for my cooldown but was not in my best interest as it would prob lead to self-sabatoge/temper tantrum
37.92, 38.55, 40.36, 39.38, 38.99, 39.58, 39.76