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Had a really bad day today. I just did not have any energy at all. Like, my first 400 felt pretty good, but it all started to go downhil from there. I just didn't have the energy to do it. On the sixth one, everything just started spinning, and I really felt like I was going to pass out and that I couldn't make it another step, and I just sort of fell off to the side. Like, I just felt like I needed something to hold onto, and the ground seemed to be the closest thing. I just felt like I was working sooooo hard and getting absolutely nowhere. Instead, I was getting beat by Heather Smith. Consistently. All I want to know is why. Like, I just don't understand any of this. And it's not like the lack of me eating is all my fault. I honestly just have no appetite whatsoever and feel like I'm going to throw up every time I go to eat something. And it's not like I'm doing this to myself...I want to eat, but I just feel so sick. But I can't afford to not go to practice, but every time I go to practice I just use up more energy that I don't have...my legs are just giving out and I feel like i have no strength left in me.