Notes
That was a living nightmare. All I wanted to do was just drop to the ground and go to sleep. And my muscles just locked up and stayed that way. I just felt like my muscles were a bunch of knots. And my stomach just hurt so bad that my back and abs just completely knotted up, and it was so hard to breathe, and I just couldn't do it. I knew I shouldn't have run from the start, but I couldn't bring myself to not take the second chance that I've been given.
I've wanted this for so long, and now that I have it, I don't want it anymore. I honestly am just getting to the point where I don't want to do this to myself anymore. It's just too much to handle, and I've reached the breaking point.