Notes
This one started out slow and steady with what I thought would be a comfortable pace all the way to the end. It was misty and raining and cool which was nice at first but after a few hours of it I was really ready for this run to be over. Mind started slipping into negative thoughts. By about mile 17 or 18 I had enough. Mentally I just don't fee like I did this time last year when I was able to push through the pain. To quote Office Space, "it's not that I'm lazy I just don't care". I know I could do it if I really wanted to but I have just lost the desire to push hard for so long. It's just not fun anymore. I love competition and to race and strive for PRs but this ultra stuff for me right now is just a suffer fest. And for what? I guess I proved to myself that I could do JFK which at the beginning was all I really wanted to do. And really just because my friend Greg barely finished a few years ago so the competitive side of me wanted to see if I could it. But there is no joy in it any longer. So after calling my wife to pick me up 20 miles into this run I decided enough is enough. I'm going to drop out of Mountain Masochist. I'll probably still go up and volunteer just to see what it's all about but I'm mentally not where I need to be to attack that race. And I don't want to run it just to suffer through it.
So the new goal are half marathon PRs. My 10K time is decent although I know I could do better. But my half PR really needs some minutes knocked out of it. Wouldn't mind going for a sub 20 minute 5K either.