Notes
It was great to wear shorts in 40 degree weather. Besides that it was terrible. I must have lost weight or something cause the 20 mph wind threw me around like a rag doll. My calf was still tight most of the run and I should probably stop running. I just feel like my legs are all screwed up and the more I think about it the more phantom pain I give myself. I think I'll just run on a tread mill a bunch over break cause it's very neutral. I feel like there is so much pressure to do workouts and I just don't want to. I don't want expectations from someone else about what I should do. I don't care professors, coaches, family, friends, why do I have to be a certain way? I feel so constrained like I'm not enjoying life that much. I just have no, absolutely no, interest in living my life to others expectations, but I try anyway. I don't understand I mean I fail so much all the time. I feel like I'm wasting time until my death. I just don't want to get injured so I can run triple digit weeks every week and I want to understand eigenvectors perfectly so that I don't fail this aircraft dynamics and control take home test. Whew, that felt good. Thank God I've got such simple things to complain about and not food or water or a civil war or all those things that most of the world deals with, instead I have a self inflicted running injury and a hard test. I guess I'm doing ok.